Monday, April 30, 2012

Baby Journey

Last week we had a doctor's appointment with the fertility specialist, and I've been debating if I should blog about it or not.  Although I've found so much peace and freedom in talking and blogging about our "infertility journey", I feel like there are still things I am not completely comfortable sharing.  For those of you who have been through this, can you relate?  Anyway, without telling too many details, I will say that when we walked away, Steve was completely hopeful...and I was completely not.  It took everything in me not to break down and sob right there in the office. The results we were given were completely NOT what we were expecting.  So now we have to do some more tests (which means more referrals, more insurance approvals...MORE WAITING!) and hopefully within the next 3 or 4 months we will have answers.  If the new tests don't give us any new information, the next step would be IVF.  I don't think we would choose to go that direction, but we are praying about it, asking the Lord to help us be patient (especially me!), give us clear direction, and desiring to give Him glory in all of it along the way.

I've learned so much about myself through this journey and our marriage has definitely become stronger.  So many friends and family members are praying for us, which gives so much comfort and peace.  I've also recently read One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp, which has totally challenged me in so many areas of my life.  I highly recommend it!

No matter how difficult my days are, at the end of each one when I hear my precious Claire pray, "Dear Jesus, please give me a baby sister," I am reminded that I've already been given such an amazing gift in her.  I know there are so many couples out there who would give their right arm to have just one child, and I do.  I thank the Lord every day for her and her sweet little life.  If God's desire for us is to have just one, I want to find complete joy, thankfulness, and peace in that.   

Thank you for your faithful prayers for us on this journey...


  1. Hi Amy, I have been down this road. I will be praying for you. If you ever want to chat give me a call. Hugs sue crook

    1. Thank you Sue! I really appreciate your encouraging words!

  2. Precious Amy,
    I love to hear the way you are trusting the Lord in all of this, allowing it to grow your marriage and your relationship with the Lord. I too am so grateful God has allowed you to be a mommy to sweet Clairebear!

    Keep resting in the fact that He see's the big picture and His timing is always perfect!
    Love you! LL

  3. Hi Amy. Thanks for sharing. I'll definitely be praying for you and more specifically that God give you insight, peace and understanding. <3 Shalom

  4. Amy,
    So many times I have wanted to ask how the baby pursuit is going but I don't want to cross a line or upset you. Thank you for sharing with the ones who care so much for you and steve. We are praying for you and this journey you're on.
    I love and miss you,
    Keri o

    1. can always ask me! I appreciate you being so sensitive and caring. I love and miss you too!

  5. Sweet Amy-

    I have not been on this journey, but you know that my road has not been what I thought it would be. I can tell you that from the darkest moments, my God has always been there. I know he has your BEST in store. Even when it just doesn't seem to make sense to us...I would much rather put my everything in His hands than lead an ounce of life on my own!

    If you want someone to talk with, I have a friend who went through this. They chose IVF...they now have triplets Katelyn's age. Let me know if you want her info.

    Love & Prayers-


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